Bereft

You made clear that I am secondary
and I "the fool" held my fools gold prize
What we shared was extraordinary
yet it comes as no surprise
that I was shiny pretty new... a toy
for a silly careless little boy
and I didn't even mind
in fact if I could rewind
Id keep each moment the same
is that even sane?
I'd never trade a touch or cuddle
I wouldn't take back my lake-like tear puddle
I'd ask for it all again
I am a glutton for pain
I relive moments in my head
because that is now all I've left
for you I am seeing Red
and of your love my world is now bereft