"Amigo"

I despise you
this is certain
there is no man
behind this curtain
the truth escapes you still I see
you have destroyed the best of me
I realize your mind
is very vapid
your process of thought
albeit rapid
offers nothing of value to me
your basic thought process, is unimpressive you see
don't pretend that you are my "amigo"
when obviously your love is outweighed by your ego

Hope, and Wonder

love you have given me substance and reason
love you have broken me down for a season
love you build me back up once again
love you make sniffling boys out of men
love you leave hallow the hearts of those willing
to believe in the myth of you, hold on to the wish of you
love you are a wholly irrational feeling
and I do not want to need you
love? Fuck you love! you have torn me asunder
love fuck you love....you made me hope, and wonder.

Magnificent

Magnificent
I love you in a moment
with one soft brush
of your lips upon my skin
you were a shadow
until the sun colored you over
and filled my eyes with you
Magnificent
I need you now forever
yet you will go
faster than I came
draining me of my color
leaving me as a shadow

White Rabbit Running

Blue eyes blind me
don't remind me
I want to want nothing
I need to need something
blue eyes spellbind me
you always find me
in my deepest slumber
in my wildest dreams
Blue eyes see me
please come free me
I want to want nothing
I need to need something
Blue eyes burn me
my heart yearning
White Rabbit Running
I've run out of time

Against My Will

Goodbye to you
who made me feel
Goodbye to you
-this isn't real!
Goodbye to you
I love you still...
Goodbye to you
against my will

Purring Angel on my Shoulder

Sleep my forever friend
whose fluffy tail haunts me well
whose kitty kisses I may always feel
I know you are gone but I reach for you still
I never loved anything so completely
you were everything to me-you healed my heart so sweetly
you were the one joy which made my heart soar
with you, I couldn't possibly have asked for more
I gave you as much love as you gave to me
and I must admit I will never accept freely
that I had to let you go
too sudden this horrific show
a constellation of symptoms which let me know
that my sweet baby was suffering-
and I couldn't let you suffer, so-
I gave you back to heaven
where you came from originally
this angel on my shoulder- in kitty years was only eleven
yet for six months, she brought heaven down to me.

Dares You

Such a sweet release is-
in apocarteresis
secrets kept in sleeplessness
and remnants of a sweet caress
haunt the girl who eats her crow
and no one else must ever know
for they might make her let this go
and she dares you to try, you know...

Black Foot

Acting quick this rotting spree
how very fitting this fate will be
I dipped my foot into the coldest sea
now this black-foot is a part of me
for I have a parasite feeding on empathy
hungry for anyone willing to feed me
step into my teeth and surely you'll bleed free
this parasite is a part of me
unable to live dispassionately
damn you now sweet chemistry
bound by reason yet logic free
you might be the death of me
decomposing readily
this corpse is fading steadily
sleeping still under my tree
this might be whats best for me

Delusions of Love

bleed me clean
of this living dream
comprised of all my lacking actions
-and my poison words
tell me sweetly,
you're mine completely
though secretly
we both know, that would be absurd
watch me burning
my heart is yearning
yet you are colder
than the oldest arctic ice
hear me lamenting
new tragedies inventing
with my tongue admitting
you are my addiction, and my vice
feel the disconnection
for my words were an infection
they were so hollow and meaningless
and now I am the fool
some would have run
At a time when I had only begun
to realize my position in your world
as a tool

"Hello Mud....My name is Stick"

Vertigo is a metaphor for Me
I'm like a kitten crying high up in a tree
paralyzed by fear unable to climb down
holding on tight, my world is spinning all around
I thought of nothing as I climbed up branch by branch
It seemed so novel, and so I took my chance
but now I've climbed too high, and this game is much less fun
soon if the winds blow, my adventure will be done
how can i retrace steps, to make sense of this mess
Logically I should be able to mentally digress
a re-route of thought process would likely do the trick
yet "Hello Mud"....."My name is Stick"
Vertigo is a metaphor for me
I'm like a child crying high up in a tree
reaching out for help, unable to climb down
letting go I take a tumble to the ground
My mind is like a maze, and I have lost my way
I cannot smell the cheese and so in this place I stay
stuck in loop logic, I do not persevere
My voice of reason whispers "Get me out of here"
a re-route of thought process would likely do the trick
yet "Hello Mud...."My name is Stick"

Wanderlust

Wanderlust you glaze me green
bursting through my every seam
bursting through with bitter scream
wanderlust you glaze me green
nothing else will ever matter
when the world is all but shattered
in my box where I live
in corporate hell with little give
this numerical identity overtakes me
a four wall cubicle all but breaks me
this ringing phone will be my noose
I feel my screws are coming loose
Im bursting out of my own skin
with every word from bitter men
my hatred bubbles underneath
building pressure with no relief
while all the natural world in glory
continues with its unnatural story
and men forget who they were meant to be
wanderlust....you get to me

Psychobabble

hollow greetings tongue and cheek
meaningless sentiments which men speak
to alleviate responsibility
replacing action with empty word
this pinnacle of futility
atop this peak of the absurd
lady justice sharing her fashion
men wearing blindfolds already blind with passion
shaking fists and bullshit rabble
enough of your psychobabble